Balance

I have never been technically anorexic or bulimic, but I’ve had a taste of both.

I know what it’s like to eat practically nothing all day just because you want to feel thin. I know how incredibly satisfying it is to go to bed and wake up hungry and skinny. It gives you hope that you’re one pound lighter, one step closer to being okay.

I also know what it’s like to binge eat. I know how incredibly satisfying it is to just keep chewing and swallowing and chewing and swallowing. It fills a hole that you can’t explain. It’s addictive, until you finish and you feel disgusted.

I have been to both ends and I can say with with no doubt in my heart that neither made me any happier or healthier. All I did was think, “is this cycle ever going to end?”

I want to put this message out to all the people out there who are struggling with their bodies. It doesn’t matter if you weigh 100 pounds or 300 pounds. What matters is that you treat your body with the care and respect it deserves. I made a resolution to treat myself better, to be healthier. So far, I’m doing well and it has changed my entire outlook on life. Of course there will be days when I want to fall back into old habits, but I’m determined to keep it up because this is it. This is the only body you get, and one day when it’s over, you’re going to wish that you cherished yourself more. 

Don’t abuse yourself anymore. Stop starving and purging for the sake of being thin. Strive to be fit, healthy, and happy. Love yourself now before it’s too late.